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kinkfestTitle: Compromises
Author: Chrissy Sky
Rating: M
Warnings: Fluff. AU. Shinji’s insecurities.
Prompt: Feb 12 Evangelion, Shinji/Kaworu: awkwardly vanilla - Kaworu tries to get Shinji into kinkier things but Shinji is reluctant, to say the least.
Word count: 1179
Summary: One day, Kaworu brings home some toys.
AN: This is the happiest Kaworu/Shinji fic online. You’re welcome.
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The plastic grocery bag was sitting on the nightstand, like an ominous bundle of malevolent evil that could only be manufactured by man. A man that was a pervert, Shinji assumed.
He’d eyed the bag since Kaworu sat it there, winking at him before slipping into the bathroom, talking almost non-stop about his day. “Then I stopped by that little shop on the way home,” Kaworu added casually as he washed his hands.
Shinji continued to gaze at the Plastic Bag of Doom. They’d talked about “that little shop” before of course. Or rather, Kaworu talked; Shinji internalized a freak out about his boyfriend getting bored with their sex life. Surely that was prophesizing the end of their relationship, and Kaworu was merely trying to hang on because he wanted to forestall Shinji crying annoyingly. He didn’t want to believe it because Kaworu was wonderful and Shinji loved his pale-haired boyfriend very much. But he knew that he was so very unworthy of Kaworu’s affections, and lived in fear of Kaworu ending their relationship every day.
So Shinji had reluctantly agreed to try new things. He still preferred to have sex in bed, facing Kaworu so he could see his red eyes and cling to him tightly. Kaworu would smile and kiss him the entire time, expressing nothing but love throughout, so Shinji hadn’t suspected he was getting bored. Lately, however, Kaworu seemed to want to do it in unusual places, like the kitchen table or in the backseat of their car. Also, there had been an incident at the public cinema and Shinji really didn’t want to think about that.
Then there were the toys, which is what was presumably in the bag.
Shinji sighed, flushing brightly. He wanted to keep Kaworu in his life. They had been together for nearly two years now, sharing an apartment while Kaworu attended university and Shinji worked for medium wage. They got by and it was the first time in years that Shinji had felt really happy. So he held onto the hope that agreeing to Kaworu’s wish for a livelier sex life would keep him around.
Curious despite his inhibitions, Shinji brought the bag closer and reached inside. Kaworu came out of the bathroom just as he pulled out the box containing nipple clamps.
Kaworu giggled softly. “You don’t look too enthusiastic.”
Shinji flushed, having hoped his unwillingness wouldn’t show. He quickly stuffed the box back into the bag. “I-I am. I said we could,” he stuttered quickly. He was a man, even though he probably wasn’t much of one. He wouldn’t take back his word.
Besides, relationships were about making compromises, weren’t they? At the very least they were important.
Kaworu smiled his sweet, fond smile that always made Shinji squirm. Kaworu had always had an effect on him, since the very first time they met, when they were fifteen and still in high school. Shinji might have taken longer to figure out he liked boys, if ever, but his reaction to Kaworu had made it blatantly obvious. Staring at girls’ bodies made him nervous, but his friends had thought he was having a nervous breakdown once he met Kaworu. Asuka still teased him about it.
His pale-haired boyfriend stepped closer, coming to sit beside him on the bed. Kaworu sat the bag of toys aside before pulling Shinji into his arms. Shinji breathed in the smell of shampoo in Kaworu’s hair and relaxed.
“I love you,” Kaworu whispered in his ear. “I’m not going to break up with you just because you don’t want to do something, silly.”
Shinji started guiltily. “How did you know?”
“I know you,” said the pale boy, kissing around his ear and down his neck, lips soft and slow. “And you’ve never been particularly good at hiding things.”
Shinji flushed, hiding his face in Kaworu’s shoulder, cheek pressed against the material of his shirt. Kaworu’s shoulder felt bony, but warm. “We still can,” he offered weakly, voice muffled by their closeness.
Kaworu’s arms tightened. “Only if you want to. I mean it, Shinji.”
He bit his lower lip, worry knotting up in his stomach. “But aren’t you getting bored?” he asked, softly, scared of the answer.
Kaworu pulled back and tilted Shinji’s face up, forcing him to meet his gaze. Red eyes were filled with confusion. “What on Earth gave you that idea?”
Shinji had to look away, gazing down at their bed sheets. They had little flowers on them. Shinji remembered picking them out at the store. Kaworu had been less concerned by the girly pattern, caring more about how soft they were. The sheets were indeed very soft.
“You want to do different things, so I just thought…” Shinji trailed off with a helpless shrug, hoping that Kaworu would tell him he was wrong.
He was. Kaworu pushed him back onto their soft sheets, kissing him so deep Shinji panted for breath. Hands worked over his body possessively, all but ripping his clothes off as Kaworu sought to undress him as quickly as possible. Shinji squirmed and tried to help, heart pounding.
They didn’t go fast, not like this. Kaworu would always make love slowly, and he loved it; but Shinji thought, absently, that maybe fast could be good too. Especially when Kaworu seemed to want him as much as he did now.
Kaworu kissed down his neck once he was naked. “Silly,” he spoke between kisses. “You don’t know how much you drive me crazy. I want you, all of you, in every way that I can, all the time.” He paused long enough to nibble on Shinji’s neck until the other young man writhed beneath him. Kaworu lifted his head with a flushed smile, red eyes bright and happy. “I’m sorry the change has scared you. It should’ve occurred to me how it would seem.”
Shinji felt his heart flutter as Kaworu nuzzled his cheek like a kitten, which he returned happily. “Damn, no, I’m sorry, Kaworu. I just got so scared. I don’t want to lose you.”
Kaworu’s hands began to travel lower. “You won’t. Ever.”
Squirming more, Shinji spread his legs invitingly as Kaworu touched him. “Kaworu,” he moaned, panting.
“I’m not bored at all,” Kaworu went on, smiling wider. “You’re the most important thing to me.” He laughed softly. “If anything, I thought you believed I was a pervert.”
Shinji almost couldn’t focus on the words. “Maybe a little,” he teased. “But—but I don’t mind. If, ah, we go slow?”
“Of course,” Kaworu agreed immediately, taking his hand away. He reached into the bag but instead of a toy, all he pulled out was a new package of lubricant. “But later. Right now, I want you as quickly as possible. I’ll prove how much I still want you.”
Shinji was all too happy to agree and pulled his boyfriend closer so they could continue. His worries faded slowly under Kaworu’s reassurances.
He would try new things with Kaworu, but now it wouldn’t be because he was afraid. It would be because they both wanted to.
~ End. Thanks for reading! ~
Author: Chrissy Sky
Rating: M
Warnings: Fluff. AU. Shinji’s insecurities.
Prompt: Feb 12 Evangelion, Shinji/Kaworu: awkwardly vanilla - Kaworu tries to get Shinji into kinkier things but Shinji is reluctant, to say the least.
Word count: 1179
Summary: One day, Kaworu brings home some toys.
AN: This is the happiest Kaworu/Shinji fic online. You’re welcome.
-
The plastic grocery bag was sitting on the nightstand, like an ominous bundle of malevolent evil that could only be manufactured by man. A man that was a pervert, Shinji assumed.
He’d eyed the bag since Kaworu sat it there, winking at him before slipping into the bathroom, talking almost non-stop about his day. “Then I stopped by that little shop on the way home,” Kaworu added casually as he washed his hands.
Shinji continued to gaze at the Plastic Bag of Doom. They’d talked about “that little shop” before of course. Or rather, Kaworu talked; Shinji internalized a freak out about his boyfriend getting bored with their sex life. Surely that was prophesizing the end of their relationship, and Kaworu was merely trying to hang on because he wanted to forestall Shinji crying annoyingly. He didn’t want to believe it because Kaworu was wonderful and Shinji loved his pale-haired boyfriend very much. But he knew that he was so very unworthy of Kaworu’s affections, and lived in fear of Kaworu ending their relationship every day.
So Shinji had reluctantly agreed to try new things. He still preferred to have sex in bed, facing Kaworu so he could see his red eyes and cling to him tightly. Kaworu would smile and kiss him the entire time, expressing nothing but love throughout, so Shinji hadn’t suspected he was getting bored. Lately, however, Kaworu seemed to want to do it in unusual places, like the kitchen table or in the backseat of their car. Also, there had been an incident at the public cinema and Shinji really didn’t want to think about that.
Then there were the toys, which is what was presumably in the bag.
Shinji sighed, flushing brightly. He wanted to keep Kaworu in his life. They had been together for nearly two years now, sharing an apartment while Kaworu attended university and Shinji worked for medium wage. They got by and it was the first time in years that Shinji had felt really happy. So he held onto the hope that agreeing to Kaworu’s wish for a livelier sex life would keep him around.
Curious despite his inhibitions, Shinji brought the bag closer and reached inside. Kaworu came out of the bathroom just as he pulled out the box containing nipple clamps.
Kaworu giggled softly. “You don’t look too enthusiastic.”
Shinji flushed, having hoped his unwillingness wouldn’t show. He quickly stuffed the box back into the bag. “I-I am. I said we could,” he stuttered quickly. He was a man, even though he probably wasn’t much of one. He wouldn’t take back his word.
Besides, relationships were about making compromises, weren’t they? At the very least they were important.
Kaworu smiled his sweet, fond smile that always made Shinji squirm. Kaworu had always had an effect on him, since the very first time they met, when they were fifteen and still in high school. Shinji might have taken longer to figure out he liked boys, if ever, but his reaction to Kaworu had made it blatantly obvious. Staring at girls’ bodies made him nervous, but his friends had thought he was having a nervous breakdown once he met Kaworu. Asuka still teased him about it.
His pale-haired boyfriend stepped closer, coming to sit beside him on the bed. Kaworu sat the bag of toys aside before pulling Shinji into his arms. Shinji breathed in the smell of shampoo in Kaworu’s hair and relaxed.
“I love you,” Kaworu whispered in his ear. “I’m not going to break up with you just because you don’t want to do something, silly.”
Shinji started guiltily. “How did you know?”
“I know you,” said the pale boy, kissing around his ear and down his neck, lips soft and slow. “And you’ve never been particularly good at hiding things.”
Shinji flushed, hiding his face in Kaworu’s shoulder, cheek pressed against the material of his shirt. Kaworu’s shoulder felt bony, but warm. “We still can,” he offered weakly, voice muffled by their closeness.
Kaworu’s arms tightened. “Only if you want to. I mean it, Shinji.”
He bit his lower lip, worry knotting up in his stomach. “But aren’t you getting bored?” he asked, softly, scared of the answer.
Kaworu pulled back and tilted Shinji’s face up, forcing him to meet his gaze. Red eyes were filled with confusion. “What on Earth gave you that idea?”
Shinji had to look away, gazing down at their bed sheets. They had little flowers on them. Shinji remembered picking them out at the store. Kaworu had been less concerned by the girly pattern, caring more about how soft they were. The sheets were indeed very soft.
“You want to do different things, so I just thought…” Shinji trailed off with a helpless shrug, hoping that Kaworu would tell him he was wrong.
He was. Kaworu pushed him back onto their soft sheets, kissing him so deep Shinji panted for breath. Hands worked over his body possessively, all but ripping his clothes off as Kaworu sought to undress him as quickly as possible. Shinji squirmed and tried to help, heart pounding.
They didn’t go fast, not like this. Kaworu would always make love slowly, and he loved it; but Shinji thought, absently, that maybe fast could be good too. Especially when Kaworu seemed to want him as much as he did now.
Kaworu kissed down his neck once he was naked. “Silly,” he spoke between kisses. “You don’t know how much you drive me crazy. I want you, all of you, in every way that I can, all the time.” He paused long enough to nibble on Shinji’s neck until the other young man writhed beneath him. Kaworu lifted his head with a flushed smile, red eyes bright and happy. “I’m sorry the change has scared you. It should’ve occurred to me how it would seem.”
Shinji felt his heart flutter as Kaworu nuzzled his cheek like a kitten, which he returned happily. “Damn, no, I’m sorry, Kaworu. I just got so scared. I don’t want to lose you.”
Kaworu’s hands began to travel lower. “You won’t. Ever.”
Squirming more, Shinji spread his legs invitingly as Kaworu touched him. “Kaworu,” he moaned, panting.
“I’m not bored at all,” Kaworu went on, smiling wider. “You’re the most important thing to me.” He laughed softly. “If anything, I thought you believed I was a pervert.”
Shinji almost couldn’t focus on the words. “Maybe a little,” he teased. “But—but I don’t mind. If, ah, we go slow?”
“Of course,” Kaworu agreed immediately, taking his hand away. He reached into the bag but instead of a toy, all he pulled out was a new package of lubricant. “But later. Right now, I want you as quickly as possible. I’ll prove how much I still want you.”
Shinji was all too happy to agree and pulled his boyfriend closer so they could continue. His worries faded slowly under Kaworu’s reassurances.
He would try new things with Kaworu, but now it wouldn’t be because he was afraid. It would be because they both wanted to.
~ End. Thanks for reading! ~
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Date: 2011-02-13 12:54 am (UTC)THESE TWO NEED MORE FLUFF LIKE THIS I swear. Did I already tell you that? Never mind, I'm saying it again even if I did! <3
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Date: 2011-02-13 01:02 am (UTC)lol! If you did, it should be said more than once anyway. THANKS.
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Date: 2011-02-13 08:36 pm (UTC)Thanks!
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Date: 2011-02-15 04:19 am (UTC)It also begged for a sequel where they try the toys... :3
P.s.: love your icon. XD
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Date: 2011-02-15 04:29 am (UTC)Yeah, it's a very random icon. ^^